moving in slow motion

I feel like I’m moving in slow motion

like I’m moving in slow motion and everything around me is

moving so fast.

and I just want to go back

to when things were normal when

i wasn't

poor izzie laying on the bathroom floor in her prom dress with her dead fiancé

but I am

so I can't

and i'm

just stuck

And there's all this pressure

 ‘cause everyone's hovering around me,

waiting for me to do something or say something

or flip out or yell or cry some more and I’m happy to play my part

I’m happy to say the lines and do whatever it is

that I’m supposed to be doing if it will make everyone feel more comfortable

but i don't

i don't know how to do this

i don't know how to be this person

 i don't

i don't know who this person is

how did this happen

?how did we end up here

Greys_Anatomy season 3

In The Sun

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong

And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy

And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen

And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God’s love be with you

Always

May God’s love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes

’Cause when you showed me myself I became someone else

But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need

I picture you fast asleep

A nightmare comes

You can’t keep awake

May God’s love be with you

Always

May God’s love be with you

’Cause if I find

If I find my own way

How much will I find

If I find

If I find my own way

How much will I find

You

I don’t know anymore

What it’s for

I’m not even sure

If there is anyone who is in the sun

Will you help me to understand

’Cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need

Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for

Any more than me


May God’s love be with you

Always

May God’s love be with you


In The Sun

from Greys anatomy

Coldplay feat Micheal stipe

State of Love and Trust

Burke was, uh. He took something from me.
He took little pieces of me.
Little pieces over time,So small, I didn't notice,... you know?
He wanted me to be something I wasn't,And I made myself into what he wanted.
One day I was me-cristina yang. And then
suddenly
I was lying for him
jeopardizing my career
agreeing to be married
And wearing a ring
and being a bride.
Until I was standing there...
In a wedding dress with no eyebrows,
And I wasn't cristina yang anymore.
And even then, I would've married him.
I would have
I lost myself for a long time.
And now... That I'm finally me again...
I can't... I love you. I love you more than I loved burke.
I love you.
And that scares the crap out of me Because..
When you asked me to ignore teddy's page
, You took a piece of me...
And I let you.
And... will never happen... Again


Cristina yang
State of love and trust
Gery's Anatomy/ Season 6/ E 13

هذيان موجه اليه

فى المطلق كده ماحدش هايفهم حاجه من الكلام ده الا المقربين من الدايرة وفى العموم كل الخطوط المستقيمة بتقفل دايرة حواليه

لما قررت انى اكتب بعد فترة طويله جدا كتبت الكلام اللى كنت بقوله لربنا فى الفترة الاخيرة ولما قرتها كانت ملخصها ليه وايه الحكمة فى كده ؟ وكالعادة مافيش اى اجابات فقررت انى استنى اى علامة واكتفى فى التأمل فى ملكوت ربنا احسن

لو كان حد قالى من خمس سنين بالظبط انى هاكون فى المتاهه دى عمرى ماكنت هاصدقة علشان كده متقولش انا انسان صاحب مبدا الا لو وقعت فى تجربة وثبت على موقفك غير كده متتكلمش كتير وتدى فى نصايح مالهاش لازمة

لاحظت فى الفترة الاخيرة انى فى الوقت مابين فتحى لباب بتنا بقف شويه بسند على الحيطة بتنفس كأنى باخد اخر انفاسى واحط قناع البنى ادمه الطبيعية وابتسم وادخل بتنا بتنجح كتيراوى بس الخوف انى من كتر تبديل الاقنعة معرفيش انا مين فيهم وده وارد جدا حاليا

صوت الساعة بقى يعصبنى الايام اللى فاتت كأنه بيقولى مافيش حاجة ثابتة وان الايام بتجرى
وكنوع من الكوميديا السودا قررت اشيل بطاريات الساعة واخلى نغمة المنبة اثبت مكانك

لما اتعملى بوست اللى كنت كتباه اكتر من 3سنين "ومن الهذيان ماقتل هكذا ابدا او هكذا انتهى "
دى كانت علامة على ان فى جريمة قتل هاتحصل بس ماحدش عارف مين فينا هايقتل التانى


شيماء حسن

4-4-2012

؟

ولا تدخلنا في تجربة. لكن نجنا من الشرير.

the stages of grief

According to Elizabeth kubler ross

When we are dying...

Or have suffered a catastrophic loss

We all move through five distinct stages of grief.

We go into denial...

Because the loss is so unthinkable

We can't imagine it's true.

We become angry with everyone

angry with survivors

angry with ourselves.

Then we bargain

We beg, we plead

We offer everything we have.

We offer up our souls.

In exchange

for just one more day.

When the bargaining has failed and

The anger is too hard to maintain

We fall into depression, Despair

Until finally we have to accept

That we have done everything we can.

We let go

We let go and move into acceptance.

Grief may be a thing

we all have in common...

But it looks different on everyone.

It isn't just death we have to grieve.

It's life...

It's loss...

It's change.

And when we wonder

why it has to suck so much sometimes,

has to hurt so bad...

the thing we gotta try to remember

is that it can turn on a dime...?

That's how you stay alive.

when it hurts so much

you can't breathe,

that's how you survive

By remembering that one day,

Somehow...

Impossibly...

It won't feel this way.

It won't hurt this much.

Grief comes in its

own time for everyone

in its own way.

so the best we can do

the best anyone can do

is try for honesty.

the really crappy thing,

the very worst part of grief

is that you can't control it.

The best we can do is try to let

ourselves feel it when it comes

and let it go when we can.

The very worst part is that the

minute you think you're past it

it starts all over again

And always, every time...

it takes your breath away.

there are five stages of grief.

They look different on all of us

But there are always five...

Denial

Anger

Bargainin

Depression

Acceptance

Gery's anatomy season 6 episode 1 and 2
Good mourning Goodbye