State of Love and Trust

Burke was, uh. He took something from me.
He took little pieces of me.
Little pieces over time,So small, I didn't notice,... you know?
He wanted me to be something I wasn't,And I made myself into what he wanted.
One day I was me-cristina yang. And then
suddenly
I was lying for him
jeopardizing my career
agreeing to be married
And wearing a ring
and being a bride.
Until I was standing there...
In a wedding dress with no eyebrows,
And I wasn't cristina yang anymore.
And even then, I would've married him.
I would have
I lost myself for a long time.
And now... That I'm finally me again...
I can't... I love you. I love you more than I loved burke.
I love you.
And that scares the crap out of me Because..
When you asked me to ignore teddy's page
, You took a piece of me...
And I let you.
And... will never happen... Again


Cristina yang
State of love and trust
Gery's Anatomy/ Season 6/ E 13

هذيان موجه اليه

فى المطلق كده ماحدش هايفهم حاجه من الكلام ده الا المقربين من الدايرة وفى العموم كل الخطوط المستقيمة بتقفل دايرة حواليه

لما قررت انى اكتب بعد فترة طويله جدا كتبت الكلام اللى كنت بقوله لربنا فى الفترة الاخيرة ولما قرتها كانت ملخصها ليه وايه الحكمة فى كده ؟ وكالعادة مافيش اى اجابات فقررت انى استنى اى علامة واكتفى فى التأمل فى ملكوت ربنا احسن

لو كان حد قالى من خمس سنين بالظبط انى هاكون فى المتاهه دى عمرى ماكنت هاصدقة علشان كده متقولش انا انسان صاحب مبدا الا لو وقعت فى تجربة وثبت على موقفك غير كده متتكلمش كتير وتدى فى نصايح مالهاش لازمة

لاحظت فى الفترة الاخيرة انى فى الوقت مابين فتحى لباب بتنا بقف شويه بسند على الحيطة بتنفس كأنى باخد اخر انفاسى واحط قناع البنى ادمه الطبيعية وابتسم وادخل بتنا بتنجح كتيراوى بس الخوف انى من كتر تبديل الاقنعة معرفيش انا مين فيهم وده وارد جدا حاليا

صوت الساعة بقى يعصبنى الايام اللى فاتت كأنه بيقولى مافيش حاجة ثابتة وان الايام بتجرى
وكنوع من الكوميديا السودا قررت اشيل بطاريات الساعة واخلى نغمة المنبة اثبت مكانك

لما اتعملى بوست اللى كنت كتباه اكتر من 3سنين "ومن الهذيان ماقتل هكذا ابدا او هكذا انتهى "
دى كانت علامة على ان فى جريمة قتل هاتحصل بس ماحدش عارف مين فينا هايقتل التانى


شيماء حسن

4-4-2012

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ولا تدخلنا في تجربة. لكن نجنا من الشرير.

the stages of grief

According to Elizabeth kubler ross

When we are dying...

Or have suffered a catastrophic loss

We all move through five distinct stages of grief.

We go into denial...

Because the loss is so unthinkable

We can't imagine it's true.

We become angry with everyone

angry with survivors

angry with ourselves.

Then we bargain

We beg, we plead

We offer everything we have.

We offer up our souls.

In exchange

for just one more day.

When the bargaining has failed and

The anger is too hard to maintain

We fall into depression, Despair

Until finally we have to accept

That we have done everything we can.

We let go

We let go and move into acceptance.

Grief may be a thing

we all have in common...

But it looks different on everyone.

It isn't just death we have to grieve.

It's life...

It's loss...

It's change.

And when we wonder

why it has to suck so much sometimes,

has to hurt so bad...

the thing we gotta try to remember

is that it can turn on a dime...?

That's how you stay alive.

when it hurts so much

you can't breathe,

that's how you survive

By remembering that one day,

Somehow...

Impossibly...

It won't feel this way.

It won't hurt this much.

Grief comes in its

own time for everyone

in its own way.

so the best we can do

the best anyone can do

is try for honesty.

the really crappy thing,

the very worst part of grief

is that you can't control it.

The best we can do is try to let

ourselves feel it when it comes

and let it go when we can.

The very worst part is that the

minute you think you're past it

it starts all over again

And always, every time...

it takes your breath away.

there are five stages of grief.

They look different on all of us

But there are always five...

Denial

Anger

Bargainin

Depression

Acceptance

Gery's anatomy season 6 episode 1 and 2
Good mourning Goodbye